Pain Down to the Bone
How are we supposed to deal with constant, excruciating pain? Pain that is so prolonged and nothing you do can permanently fix it. Pain that I just want to leave me alone. Pain that leaves me feeling like I’m dead, like my bones are aching. But how am I better than this pile of bones? Sometimes I wish that I couldn't feel any pain like these bones do.
In my second spine and ribcage piece, I explore more of the feeling that my illness gives me. The repetition of the multiple ribs, but also the multiple vertebrae remind me of the constant pain that I feel in each part of my body. It reminds me that I feel pain in almost every single joint and space between my bones.
From all the pain, I feel like I’m rotting away like these disintegrating ribs. Like I’m broken like the cracking glaze that fills each nook and cranny. The black part of the glaze also only stuck to parts of each vertebrae and rib, meaning that some parts of my body are bad and unhealthy, just how my illness takes over different joints in my body at a random time and day.
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